Emotions

Sometimes I wish I could be emotionless. Emotions make makes me feel… Bothered. I hate it. 

For instance, the feelings of love and romance, blinds me from reality and alas the red flags, I still go ahead with it. Panic, anxiety and fear condemns me from making the right decision. Sadness and being upset makes me feel weak. In all ways, all these emotions irrationalise me from the much needed logic and control I require in daily life. I hate it. 

Sometimes I wonder if my life would be different if I could just possess a little more self discipline, a little more self control. All in turn, just to be a little more emotionless. I hate it. 

As of now, I have defined happiness (which is the purpose of life) as a mixture of relationships and satisfaction. It seems to contradict the fact that I would like to be more emotionless, yet just feel as jubilant near my family members. But if I was to choose either bliss in ignorance or boredom in reality, I would gladly choose the latter. 

Love

Love is a magical thing. Its never quite been understood and I don’t reckon anyone even fully understands it. 

Love is confusing. It oftentimes can be confused with infatuation, or instantaneous attraction where the main source of jubilation are hormones acting up. This is an inevidentable human nature. For instance, we could see a reasonably decent looking human for the first time and all these creative fantasies start popping out of nowhere. Red flags are ignored and thoughts of an imaginative future starts wandering but conclusively, the relationship is nothing more than a temporary superficial obsession. In situations like these, love is exciting, sizzling and oh so anticipating. The ignorance in immaturity of early stages.

Love is more than logic. Acts of unintelligence can appear, strange behaviours and uncommon patterns are symptoms of love. Many people think that feelings are calculable and can be strategised for maximum profit; it just doesn’t work that way. Feelings are unspeakable and barely describable and cannot be taken lightly at all. Almost all logic is lost when love strikes and things become unexplainable. So goes the saying that love is blind.

Love can be dull. A decade of relationship can be reasonably less exciting than the first date 20 springs ago, but what strives and persist the existence of the relationship is the understanding, trust, childishness and easiness of long married couples. After a couple of years together, love can turn bland, as though eating the same dish daily, or living in the same house for the rest of your life; and we’re doing neither of that, let alone with a living and breathing person. Needless to say, a lot of comprising must happen.

In conclusion, to love and be loved is a fascinating thing. Yet contrary to popular beliefs, it doesn’t have to start with the precondition of having a partner. Love exist everywhere. Healthy relationships between animals and humans is a symbol of love, healthy parents children connections are clear indications of a loving relationship. 

It is utmost important to not be conplacent and have an infinite grattitute to the person you are in a relationship with in order to sustain a happy and fulfilling relationship.

Before Bed: Remaining Calm

Motives are very important to remain calm.

If we always carry a bag of disgust just right under the radar of conscious, we constantly seek the confirmation that we really are the worthless people we think we are.

When others madden us, we need to imagine the turmoil, disappointment, worry and sadden that is hiding beneath the surface. We need to gage compassion to those that annoy us. We must do that very strange thing, we must move from anger to pity.

Enough Bacon

What an amazing read

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Hipsters have ruined bacon. I have a sack of it in my fridge, but I don’t celebrate it like some Wiccan stump worshiper. I pretty much only eat it in the summer with good tomatoes. It doesn’t have to be on every damn thing. Bacon has basically become a condiment in the US. Soon, there will be a plate of it next to the salt on every table. It’s time to say enough with this bacon obsession. Things have gotten out of hand. Just look at Arby’s.

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Before Bed: A Little Rant

It’s 1am in the morning and I can’t sleep. So I decided, why not just write a blog post?

It’s been awhile since my last post, in fact I believe it was last year since my last post, and for a good reason.

Actually, not really for a good reason. I’ve been getting off social media quite a lot and I suppose WordPress isn’t exactly your common social media but, you get my point.

Not much has happened, don’t get me wrong, Intern has been awesome. But besides that, there’s really nothing much to update at all. Yes, I’m still playing some instruments and yes, I’ve been working on the project (in fact I’m really proud of how far I have come) and languages but I haven’t been able to get this other itch off the back of my head.

What’s been bugging me the most is none other than, my future.

I’m not that young anymore, in fact, I’m old af – and I still haven’t gotten a clue on what or how I want my life to be like, if that doesn’t worry me, I wonder what would. And I know that completing my education and finishing school with good grades is the most important thing for me to be as of now, but I can’t help but think about a year from now.

Honestly, a year from now, I would be utmost elated that I have graduated. But I would have nothing to do as well and that worries me a lot. Perhaps I could go get another useless certificate that has nothing with what the industry needs. Yeah, I could do that. And let my parents pay for my education for another couple years.

Or I could also get a job, yeah I should do that..

What would you do one year from now?

Before it ends, 2015

Incredible things

Thought that it would be nice to conclude the year with a final post mentioning events that has happened for the past few weeks.

First off, Metilda and I went to Amanda’s concert, Not-so-classical Xmas, before common test started and it was really good! The Hokkien rhythm of Christmas songs was really interesting!!

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Finally gotten my USS pass with Yvette the other day after our last common test paper!! It was really fun and I totally felt like a kid again. We didn’t manage to catch a lot of the rides because all the queue were so long and the average time for most of the rides were one hour. Will definitely go back soon for all the rides. Since it was the Christmas period, there were fake snow and it was so pretty! So friends, if you need someone to accompany you to USS, you know who you can…

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